貓與歸墟 Cats and the Desolate Retreat

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一、

不會說：貓很重要

可是貓能辟邪

 

最怕軟骨的鬼

一身腥臭

每晚鏡內跟我打游擊

也出現在各類新聞報導裡

胡說八道

 

不會說：貓很聰明

可是憂鬱讓牠們開朗的舉止

顯得與世無爭

更有深度

 

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I wouldn’t say: Cats matter

But cats can ward off evil spirits

 

Ghosts with soft bones are the most despicable

Reeking of a fishy smell

they have guerrilla warfare with me nightly in the mirror

and appear in all kinds of news reports

speaking shit

 

I wouldn’t say: Cats are clever

But melancholy makes their bright demeanour

seem to stand aloof from worldly pursuit

ones of great depth

  

 

 

 二、

計劃都是多餘的

你慵懶一瞥也堪稱凝望

凝望那些飛著微風的牆角

只有你輕視

蜘蛛網捕獲的翅膀

並你避刀時切斷過的毛

 

記憶中母親也屬溫柔

提著刀她真正想要你的命

她要是像你一樣輕巧

要是和你一樣

把世界當做一幅靜物畫

 

還以為死亡就是一隻瘦貓

遺留一撮毛

隔天你又緩步至盤前

吃母親為你殺的魚

 

Planning is futile.

Your lazy glance can also be called a gaze

gazing at those corners of flying breezes

Only you look down on

the wings caught in spider webs

and the hair cut off when you dodged the knife

 

In my memory, Mother was gentle too

Holding a knife she did want to take your life

If only she had been as brisk as you

If only, same as you

she had treated the world as a still life    

 

I thought death was a skinny cat

leaving a tuft of hair

The next day you padded slowly to the bowl again

to eat the fish Mother killed for you

 

三、

也不是所有空洞的東西

都漂浮

你的房間充滿了陽光

眼內的水晶

比鑽石還要透明

 

有些風急急縱身

有些徘徊使你更似蝨

而一個個再無瓜葛的錨

當休眠時間終歸到臨

也要抵達你我

漂遠的歸墟

 

Not all empty stuff

drifts

Your room brims with sunlight

The crystal in your eyes

is clearer than diamond

 

Some winds hastily jump

Some sort of lingering makes you akin to a tick

And the anchors that have nothing to do with each other

when sleep finally falls

will arrive too

at our desolate retreat which has drifted far away